Bianca

Lets see where do I start.When I had the idea to start writing this blog .I was a little set back with what do I keep private what do I let everyone know .But i think that everyone needs to know when you are doing great and when you not doing good at all and when your at your bottom.
I mean lets be honest we all have our ups and downs .When we are doing well we want everyone to know but when we at our worse we keep to ourselves at least that's what I do.
So with great thought I will tell you what I saw today and how I felt and all the emotions and thoughts that went trough my head .
On my way to work this morning my usual route the usual traffic the usual homeless people at the corner ,but wait there was a little girl begging a freak en kid a petite homeless kid .I was dumb founded .And of course she came up to the driver side asking for money ,my heart dropped I was trying so hard not to cry and everyone thats knows me I am tough cookie it takes alot to break me.So I told her I was sorry I had no money but I talked to her for little bit .She looked tired and dirty I wanted to wipe her face and take her hair out of her face .She was thin and looked so defenseless.Then all of a sudden I remembered I had a bottle water and gave it to her when i handed it to her I asked her for her name and she looked confused she said "what?" I said what is your name and she told me her name I felt so bad when was the last time someone cared enough to ask this kid her name .She told me her name and I told her I'd pray for her.
So finally the light turned green and I drove off .I was so mad and sad I started crying .Where the hell are her parents ?But then I thought is this what people though of me when Joseph ran a way ?What is she running from abuse ,neglect just not wanting to follow the rules her parents had.When Joseph ran a way he was running from what I could not give him his dad.When he would come back home he would be so thin so dirty ,and we would all tell him how much we loved him and he didn't care he would just take off.Everyone told me he'll get tired of being on the street but he didn't .Then other people would say the police would catch up with him . I knew that they were right .But I also knew that if he were caught by the police he would either turn himself around or just go down hill.You see we tired counseling one on one group counseling with other teenagers all of his family tried to help we all tried we all begged we cried we screamed but nothing worked.Unfortunately Joseph got in trouble with the police and was placed in a residential treatment facility for 18 mths.So after being a run a way for a year and then 18 mth's of being in the facility .He finally gave up and my kid changed .I have my son back .I have all my kids together finally after about three years.So when I saw this little girl .All the feelings that I had once felt came back to me and I just wanted to tell her it will all be okay just go home ,but then I taught is home a safe place for her .Someone has to miss her .How many other homeless run a ways are out there ?How do we fix this problem? What do you tell a kid that is so lost ,I know what I told my own son . All I know is you don't give up you pray and you stand by your kid at there lowest and you make sure they know how much they are loved and wanted and you listen to them you really listen you put all your feelings aside and you let that kid tell you everything thing they have bottled up and when they do that they are setting themselves free .All that weight is lifted off their shoulders.


Hopefully this little girl will one day go home or to safe place with a family that loves her and be a great young women. Just hope and pray she will not be forgotten......