mi abuelito

Mi abuelito ,
There is so much to this man .When I look at him I see the wrinkles he has earned over the years .The gray hair that he can pull off just fabulously (not everyone one looks great in gray hair) .The small thin body frame he is in now ,use to once be a strong man that we all ran to when he got home from a long day at work.Mi abuelito has three daughters and three sons ,23 grandchildren and 34 great grandchildren .And the family is still growing .I remember once when I was a little girl mi abuelito saying that it doesn't matter how much money you have what makes you rich is how big your family is .So by the looks of it we are millionaires !!
It hurts by whole entire being when I see mi abuelito so frail and so sad .If he only knew what joy he brings me to just to see him just to simply touch his face or kiss his cheek to hug and hold him .My children are truly blessed to know him and see him not many kids know or have seen there great grandparents. I wish with all my heart there was way to take away his pain .But there isn't .I wish i could make him that strong man that he once was.The man that looked at mi abueltia like she was the most beautiful women in the world and still does till this day.
He is the glue of our family .Him and mi abuelita have been thru so much good and so much bad but they have remained together and are so devoted to each other .All I want is for him to know that we love him and that to thank him being so good to us all ....

I can remember ...

I usually am a bit on edge come the end of July.And its because I know my sons birthday is just so close.It never ever fails I start to remember everything that I went thru being pregnant with him at age 16 .It was am emotional roll a coaster ride for me .From the way my body was changing .Nobody ever explained to me the changes my body would go thru or the things I would feel.I can remember placing my hand on my tummy and being so scared but in front of family I acted so brave .How was I going to feed and cloth a baby a baby that deserved everything that life had to offer when all I was ,was a high school drop out that thought love would conquer all.How wrong i was .I get mad at myself so much but at the same time I am so happy I had my boys when I did.My boys are so handsome so full of life . Joseph will be 17 on August 2ND .My boy has had a hard couple of years but now is a stronger young man.Before his future looked grim but now I only see good things to come.I do not know how to explain the unconditional love I have for him actually for all my children . God has blessed me with many things in life I have both my grandparents on mother and fathers side I have huge family that is fee led with love and kindness. I do not want to ever ever forget my past because that truly has made me who I am today .All the bad I went thru and all the good either way I am happy to be alive and in good health .I know i will probably never forget certain smells ,touches something someone once said to me .And for those things i will be forever grateful.