I can remember ...

I usually am a bit on edge come the end of July.And its because I know my sons birthday is just so close.It never ever fails I start to remember everything that I went thru being pregnant with him at age 16 .It was am emotional roll a coaster ride for me .From the way my body was changing .Nobody ever explained to me the changes my body would go thru or the things I would feel.I can remember placing my hand on my tummy and being so scared but in front of family I acted so brave .How was I going to feed and cloth a baby a baby that deserved everything that life had to offer when all I was ,was a high school drop out that thought love would conquer all.How wrong i was .I get mad at myself so much but at the same time I am so happy I had my boys when I did.My boys are so handsome so full of life . Joseph will be 17 on August 2ND .My boy has had a hard couple of years but now is a stronger young man.Before his future looked grim but now I only see good things to come.I do not know how to explain the unconditional love I have for him actually for all my children . God has blessed me with many things in life I have both my grandparents on mother and fathers side I have huge family that is fee led with love and kindness. I do not want to ever ever forget my past because that truly has made me who I am today .All the bad I went thru and all the good either way I am happy to be alive and in good health .I know i will probably never forget certain smells ,touches something someone once said to me .And for those things i will be forever grateful.