being me

lets see this can get really complicated .
First off I am a mom .Which I had no idea 17 year ago what that all entailed .Being a mom you are your children's true advocate you will fight a good fight for your children ,even when they are wrong I will come to there defense (why I have no idea) I am a protector off all bad things from naughty movie videos ,to middle school boys trying to holler at my daughters ,to the school bullies ,to any bad at all.I am a 24 hour nurse thanks to webmd , I am a counselor , I am the listener to any woos my babies may have ,oh yes I can also be the enemy (when I say no to there fullish wants ). I am the wife ,cook,cleaner ,toenail clipper,hairstylist,referee,the alfit inspector ( making sure no one wears anything scandalous to school) , the one that cries her self to sleep scared that her children will not make good choices ,scared that one day they will not be there,scared that if I tell them no they will hate me ,scared that they don't understand my fears ,because if they understood they wouldn't fight me on my decision.I have done many stupid awful things that I regret with all my being .I have said many things that I wish had never been spoken .I have hated .Which I believe aged me about 10 years and gave me no comfort so I brandy will never hate again instead I will dislike a whole bunch j/k.I have learned many valuable lessons in life .The greatest of which is family . And that I love them all with all my heart !!!